Kick them when they're...up?

Slowly, things have been turning upside down in my life.  Moving is the biggest pain in the ass and I never want to do it again.  Then I had to wait a week to get my room painted and now things are finally being put together and working out.  But as this is happening, my mood has been continually going down the drain.  I'm getting more worried about my aunt and I look at her at the times when she can't hide her feelings and I know more than I can stand.  My uncle is an asshole and honestly, I never want to see him again.  I saw him last weekend and he hugged me and I was ready to kick him in the balls.  See if that helps him sleep with his girlfriend the next night.  Wouldn't that be so nice of me?  He doesn't know that I know and he can't know that I know so I can't do anything about it.  As I begin to feel more relaxed about my aunt and knowing that she is getting away from him soon, I find out that my friend's cancer is coming back on the same day that I find out another friend's boyfriend has died.  I didn't know him so that doesn't bother me, but I hate to see any of my friends upset...and I can't do anything for her right now.  I've stretched myself so thin that I hardly sleep and I've had a constant headache for the last two weeks now.  My dad and I have been fighting too, which is somewhat normal considering we did that a lot when we were around eachother more, but I still don't like it.  I hate the feeling I get when he looks at me when he's mad at me, but I stand up for myself when I have to and I won't back down unless I want to.  I'm so glad he's gone away for a week.

The adorable mister I mentioned before and I haven't talked too much and I'm not completely sure as to why.  Tonight has been better, but I wish I could see him.  If anyone could make me feel like there is a reason to be around, it's him.  If anyone could make me feel so happy I could kick myself, it's him.  I want to go back to the moments we spend together a week ago and be that happy, that alive, and just laugh right now.  I just wish, of all things, that I knew what he was thinking.